Recently I was looking back through photos of lil' D...man he was so tiny! (Now he is 3 months & changing so much~more on that later) I knew it would go fast and I have been savoring every stage. As we went through the newborn stage I knew I loved it and snuggling my little guy. However, I did not expect that I would hunger for a newborn while looking at friends newborn photos or whilst shooting newborn sessions. Often I get asked if we will have more or just be okay with one. Most people know how rough my pregnancy and delivery were~and in all honesty I usually answer that if the next one is a girl we will be done. My heart is torn though for my pretend kids-crazy I know. In my head my pretend world plays out like this~
I am a mother of 4: 2 boys and 2 girls. They have super cute names like: Danen Trent :0), Breea Capreese, Kingston Crue, Harper ????....They are all amazing good and cute (imagine great family photos...beaches and smiles-lol). In my pretend world I am nothing short of Martha Stuart. My house looks like a magazine, and I create more crafts and amazing ideas than Pinterest. In my pretend world I manage my time like a pro and I am never behind on cleaning, laundry, photography, dishes, ect....and I spent countless hours reading and teaching my children. I do my visiting teaching monthly with a handout, treat, and amazing lesson. My achievement day girls have amazing activities, treats, and handouts each time we meet. In the midst of this I find time to do service, go back to school, and develop my talents. In my pretend world I am the nicest, kindest, and most welcoming friend to all of those around me. I am the koolaid mom who loves all kids and is totally okay with them being over all the time-destroying my house making amazing art, whilst snacking on awesome homemade chocolate chip cookies and milk. In my pretend world I make a new fabulous meal every night and dessert, and everyone loves/eats it and no one ever gets fat (i.e. me). I could go on & on about my pretend world, but in actuality the one I have is quite perfect for me.....
I have a great imagination and all that sounds amazing (something to strive for I suppose), I must admit that I am completely in love with the life I have. I have an amazing husband who loves and supports me and loves being a dad. I have an adorable son that has a smile that melts my heart and makes this non-emotional lady tear up just a bit everytime I see it. I am blessed and loved by a wonderful father in heaven, and have the gospel of Jesus Christ in my life to help guide and mold me. I have wonderful parents who help me create the amazing projects I dream up in my head, but am unable to do on my own :0). I have awesome friends and family who put up with me even when I am scattered and crabby. I have the support of a community that has enough faith in me and my abilities to keep me employed and thriving. My house may not always be clean, organized, or decorated to a tee-but we have a roof over our head and all the things we need. I am greatful for my life and all the things I have learned and continue to learn. I may not be perfect-and my life may not be perfect, but everything is just the way it should be-and that I can be eternally certain of, if I maintain my faith and love. At the end of each hectic day I know I wouldn't trade my eternal family and life in the now~for any pretend life my imagination could conjure up.
In May of 2005 I married my husband Eric, and eternally banished the Murphy's Law curse. We met at Idaho State University in an Institute class, he was a recent transfer from a private college where he was playing basketball. We have begun our real life in the mountains of Wyoming, where Eric is a High School PE teacher/Head Basketball coach/Head Track coach, and I work in Special Education with K-1 kiddos. We love to travel, be with our family and friends, be involved with sports, and the outdoors. Eric loves to hunt, fish, play ball, design antler art, and workout. I love to do creative things like scrapbooking, crafting, decorating, and doing photography (as shown by my other blog). Hands down though, I am a total scrapbook junky!! We have a love for life and for eachother that has withstood a lot in the few years we have been married, but we know that the lord only puts in our path what we can handle and so with faith we keep on going. Through this crazy life we're just trying to enjoying it as it comes, we hope to continually make amazing memories that will get us through the hard times and keep us moving forward.